unself

I just realized that I have been not being myself for so long that I feel like I dont even know myself. I dont know me. I dont know how to describe myself. I dont know my personality anymore. It's not quite like I lost my identity but more like my personality.
I get used to put different masks everytime I hang out. Why I do that? Is it because I want to please others so they will like me?I dont know why. Everytime I go out, I feel like I transformed to a different person and, at the end of the day, I feel exhausted.
I remember back then, when I was able to be myself, I never got exhausted hanging out with my friends. In fact, I never thought that my friends were my family.
Yeah, that was back then.
A long drive of commute can make u think lots of things, including this one, how I have become not myself for a long time without realizing it.
I think I have found part of my solutions to my problems. How can u be happy with yourself if you never be yourself.
well, for you who know the existance of this blog, thank you for letting me be myself.