12.03

i wish that i did not know that he is going away ...
i hide myself for 2 days. no contact whatsoever with him.because work has been crazy, plus i want to see his reaction.
on the 3rd day, i said hi *yes, i was the first one that broke the ice* we talked, and he said, so how are you? we havent chatted for couple days.
then i realized that he was right, it has been couple days. i did not realize it. honestly, i did not realize it at that time.
i know it's nothing but it's nice when people ask how you are doing and they mean it when they ask you.
i try not to have any expectations but everytime i thought i have done it, something always happened and i have to start all over again...
prob. i should not start all over because there is nothing to start with...
just keep going....
and try not to look back

we'll see how i will do next week...:)