Women

I told my cuz, friends, and I actually believe that never ever try to figure out what women think and how to understand them. I thought that i am different, today, i find out that i am not. I thought that the way i think it's not like women since i like things to be simple and straight-forward. Well, I am wrong but I do like things to be simple and straight- fwd tho.
I never hated anyone in my life.Never. I dislike a person in terms of compatibility. So when I dislike a person, I try to put a distance with that person. So, i hate him. yes, i hate him. i have been carrying this hatred since 2 days ago. not sure why. i guess because i put myself out there and, in a way, i feel humiliated. but i hate him.
so i went to a self-defense class and when i was training, i pictured him. Anger and hatred give you so much energy and power to destroy things. It's scarry.
I felt so relieve tho. I have to be able to let things go because, eventually, we will meet and I have to be able to control my emotions.
I met this guy and i like hanging out with him but i still carry this hatred inside my heart.
What's wrong with me huh?!
That's why folks, women is one messed-up creature. dont even try to figure them out, just a waste of time. Even I ,as a girl, dont understand them and myself. hahaha