shattered

it breaks my heart everytime i finished talking with my mom over the phone. she always tries to be cheerful tho deep inside she is sad. and i can feel her sadness. to make it worse, i cant do a thing except listening to her. i try calling her more often now so she wont feel alone. i am glad i finally found a calling card that has a clear sound quality. yes, it is a bit expensive but i dont care.
my sister is planning to come down here and i know that mom wants to go too but she cant. she asked how i am doing, how my job is, health etc. she said that i have to take care of myself, eat right etc.
i cant do this. it's too painful.