never ever i write a blog from home. i always do it from the office..yeah i am such a dedicated worker hahaha
so this is my 1st time writing my blog from home. i guess they are right when they say there's always a first time for everything.
in this case, i have 2 events, first time writing a blog from home, the other event is first time got an F . u might think it's not a big deal. but it is for me. because i never had one before. i dont like getting a B, let alone getting an F. F stands for F.A.I.L.U.R.E. it's a very strong word with a negative meaning. i cant think of the use of the word fail in any positive scenarios.
but it's a part of learning lesson in life.
funny part tho,
right after i know my score, i felt nothing, i was ok. i started feeling down, disappointed in myself, ashamed, and everything 5 minutes after.
talked to several friends, they asked about my exam, i couldnt lie, i told them the truth tho i felt so ashamed. but, for the first time, i did not care. i told them that i finished it and got the score and i failed.
they are very supportive which i really appreciate. they encouraged me not to give up. they even made me laugh:)
thanks guys.
i know this is the first exam. i still have a chance with my other exams and assignments.
i have to stop unconciously comparing myself with my sis.
it's 2 am. and i am just being a body bag. doing nothing. watching seinfeld, SATC, friends. i need some funny things so bad now.
for you who already know what u want to do, be glad.
my friend asked me, a very good q, are u happy where you at now?do u want to be in this field?
the point is, why am i taking this class?
and i dont have the answer. but i know the answer of one of the questions, i am not happy where i am now. i want to do more because i know i can. it may take a detour but i will get there!
a co-worker is sick and i will be taking over her job at least temporarily. i have done her job and i like it.
and, thats what i want to do.
so when i heard the news, i was sad because she is a dear friend of mine in the office. but, deep inside, the evil side of me is happy.
is it wrong that i feel happy over someone's sorrow?
people said that u have to be selfish once in a while. i never believed that. but i kinna do now.
i have to think about where my career is going and i see this opportunity as the road that leads me to it.
