So Long Mon Ami

Till we meet again...

I guess it was best not to say good bye altho your cell was still active on the day you left the country. But I chose not to talk to you because I never good at saying good bye and I know that this is not a good bye. You are just relocating :)
And it so happened that the place you are going to is far away from me.
But I am sure we'll talk again.
And, perhaps, one day, we can meet again so I can smack your head. haha...

Yeah, at times, I hate you but I care about you too. I hope you will find THE girl or be with that girl that you like and stop playing games and put down your pride for once, just for this time.

"mas..mas...for once, be brave, face your feelings, and say those three words that you like her"

Hope you landed ok and no trouble at the airport.

See ya...

Triangle, Square

I feel like I am back to square one everytime I talk to my mom. I cannot bear listening to her voice. She sounds tired and sad and lonely and I cant be there for her. I found a new motto couple weeks ago. 'you should find your source of unhappiness and stay away from it'
It sounds very selfish but, of course, you cant apply this to all situation.
It kinda helps me.
I found that he is my source of unhappiness so I limit myself to see and hang out with him.
Plus it looks like he is avoiding me too. So, why try hard to be friendly with him?
So my new motto kinda works for me.
But, I like talking to my mom. I like listening to her stories but, I feel sad at the same time.
Because she has 4 kids and all of them are away.
She used to hang out with my close friend.
just to go out to see a movie on sundays.
I feel guilty and was relieved that she has a friend to see movies. She loves to see movies.
and that's her only entertainment. and now, my friend has a bf.
Mom told my sis that she is sad because now she has no one to go see a movie with.

I called my mom this morning at work. and she was about to go to sleep. and she said that she is going to sleep and just call her on sunday because she will be home. she is not going anywhere.
Do you remember those fairy tales about a princess being trapped in a castle waiting for someone or a prince to rescue her?
That's her except she already has a prince.
I know this sounds really mean but I would not call him a prince.
So,
be happy if your parents love each other. At least, you have one less thing to worry and think about even when you are away from them because you know that your parents dont feel lonely. They have each other.
They might miss you.
I hope I can go home this year.
I have to.

Think Bright

Waaaaa I finally not worry about my friend. She has been in the downside of this life for a long time. She is not satisfied with her life and work altho I think she is doing well. Bow she is happy because there is a guy who is doing PDKT to her hahahha and I know this guy. He is sweet and a good guy. They met at a friend's wedding. and the story rolled by itself from there.
It is really nice knowing that she is happy now.
Everytime she is online, she always tells me happy stories. They get along. They click. ah..
I am happy for you. I really am. You deserve this after all the things that u been through.
:) :)

Huahhhhhhhhhhhhh

This peanut just got back from a two-day road trip and the feeling of this peanut is HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA as in Happpyyyyyyyyyy and satisfied hahaha
Yeah, we went to see a fountain show and fireworks in a garden.Altho it's not as good as the one in Canada but I can scratch 2 of my to-do list haha
Overall, the trip was good eventho the companions a little bit sucky but they are ok. they are not picky, very flexible and reasonable. very easy to work with. always open to anything.
i guess, sometimes, people have other things in their minds that's why they cant really communicate with each other. but thanks to music, radio station, and ipod to fill in the silence sometimes. and accompanied me.
anyway, thanks guys...

it was a great weekend gateaway...i had the chance to test my camera...and now i want a a DSLR hiks...

good nite world..i hope i will have a good week...
man..im ready for next destination..
where should i go next...hmm...

One bad food day

Never ever in my life that everything went wrong for the whole day in terms of the food that we eat:)
a friend visited me and we were planning to have dinner at this place. Another friend recommended it and said that this place is FANTASTIC! I looked it up online and all the reviews were out of the roof!
so, being so close to the place, I wanted to give it a try. The place offers pan asian food. I like this kind of food. They are like the new hybrid of asian food :)
So we went there. sat down. liked the atmosphere. nice and quiet. the wall was painted in red and black. they have some pictures of japan and samurai and other japanese culture things.
we opened the menu, they have japanese, chinese and thai food.
we were intrigued.
this place is known for its sushi. so of course, we ordered sushi.
and a thai noodle dish.

service was great. staff was very friendly. out water never half empty.
the food came.
sushi was ok.
the noodle was plain. but the chicken satay was decent.
the tuna was bad. my...o..my...

so, that was our first stop.

we thought we needed something to fix this. something good and sweet. Ice cream!!!
We drove around and found one ice cream place.
We got there at 10.03 and the place closed at 10.
boy...what a disappointment especially after i made that crazy u-turn.
sigh....
but, we havent given up yet because i remember there is a diner near by. and they have good milkshake!
as decent as Denny's milkshake.
went in there and ordered 2 shakes.
got mine and mine is very thin almost like liquid and i could smell the milk. yuck.sorry i am not a milk person, i drink milk because i have to.
same thing as my friend's shake.
so, we drank like 1/4 of it.
and left.

boy never ever in my life had a bad shake. how can u go wrong with shake???!!!
oy!

so, after the shake's trip, we decided to go home and hope that we wont experienced this ever again hahaha
what a night...
bad food after another...

The Mind II

Now that I think about it. It is doable. Your mind should be able to control your feelings, it's only a matter of willingness and how strong your will is.

The Mind

Wouldn't it be nice if your mind can control your heart, not the other way around. Or is it just a woman thing? nah..it's not a woman thing.

Black Monday

Today is officially a Black Monday for me. Should have known from the time I could not sleep this morning. Everything just went down the hill from there. Tummy aches, and I lost my keys.
I dont know what else can go wrong. I have approx. 6-7 hrs to find out. I soooo want today to be over.
Gotta find a big wood to knock on many many times

Monday Morning

Good Morning World! It is 4.00 AM EST in US and I am wide awake since 2.30 AM.
Never claimed myself as a morning person but I didn't have a choice today. I opened my eyes and it was still dark outside. Trying to reach out for my cell aka my alarm aka my clock and it was 2.30 AM!!!!!
Oh goodness...
One thing crossed my mind, I wish I had a key to the office :)
Not so I can sleep there altho that is not a bad idea....
My office building has a very nice view. We are facing a small lake. It is a man made lake but it is very nice.
In the summer time, the duckies are swimming around the lake.
In the winter time, they hide and all I see is white dust with footprints of the chipmunks :)

Good Morning World and I will try to go to bed again.