New Year 01/11/07

i got my confirmation, i think. dia ga mau hubungan lagi sama aku. even chatting aja ga dijawab.
well..i dont know what i did but i just found it weird. setelah aku kasi hadiah itu, kita masih ngomngan, terus setelah new year, jadi aneh.
hmm..oh well..today is my new year since i got my confirmation.
i wonder, curious, kalo ntar ketemu kayak gimana ya :)

Women

I told my cuz, friends, and I actually believe that never ever try to figure out what women think and how to understand them. I thought that i am different, today, i find out that i am not. I thought that the way i think it's not like women since i like things to be simple and straight-forward. Well, I am wrong but I do like things to be simple and straight- fwd tho.
I never hated anyone in my life.Never. I dislike a person in terms of compatibility. So when I dislike a person, I try to put a distance with that person. So, i hate him. yes, i hate him. i have been carrying this hatred since 2 days ago. not sure why. i guess because i put myself out there and, in a way, i feel humiliated. but i hate him.
so i went to a self-defense class and when i was training, i pictured him. Anger and hatred give you so much energy and power to destroy things. It's scarry.
I felt so relieve tho. I have to be able to let things go because, eventually, we will meet and I have to be able to control my emotions.
I met this guy and i like hanging out with him but i still carry this hatred inside my heart.
What's wrong with me huh?!
That's why folks, women is one messed-up creature. dont even try to figure them out, just a waste of time. Even I ,as a girl, dont understand them and myself. hahaha

Water

Should you care about what others' think of what you are doing? Yes and no.
if you believe in what you are doing is right, go for it, why care about ppl's opinion?! but it's always easier said than done.
it is almost 1 year and i think my bro is still mad at me because i decide to stay.
i really hate him when he mentioned the fact that mom is hanging out with my friend instead of with her daughter.
if u think about it, my sis went back home and she does not live in our hometown. and this scenario will apply to me too if i decide to go home. so where is the sense in that??!!!
I never mentioned the fact that his wife never accompanied mom because it's not my bus. so i hope she will never asked me again about when i will go home because it's not her bus.!